Braving the Wilds

Field Notes from the Suburban Jungle

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Relay

A starter’s gun sees fit
To startle runners
To swift mobility:
Igniting the twitches
Of quadriceps, locked
In the blocks, to
More productive
Action.

Metal spikes in
Soles of athletic
Shoes, connecting
With a gravel track,
Reverberate in the jaw,
The teeth, grinding
Like an un-oiled
Gear, propelling
The body forward.

A hollow baton,
Painted aluminum,
Whistles a beat,
A bitonal melody,
A rhythm
Matched by the
Maker,
By movement.

Knuckles locked closed,
Gripping a weight,
Requiring a give,
A take,
Compensation
For a body off balance.
With weakened back,
the foundation is sown
Like a farmer’s field,
Untilled and black
With richness
And possibility.

Second leg,
A political war
Of kinesthetics,
The warrior recognizes
Space, time
Opponents in
The arc of a goal.

Baton! He yells,
And raises
A blue-veined
Forearm,
A battle cry.

For a fraction of a second,
Contact is made,
Hand to stick to hand,
Brotherly and unified
Rising into striding sync:
A mathematician
Calculates
Forward progression.

Precision in the final lap
A philosopher
Whirring wheels
Breaks a tape with
Developed powerful
Pectorals inflated with
Steady inhalations –
Unbated –
Unified in hope
Of the three cyclic
Lifetimes that ran
Before him, churning
The cinder of
An ignorant path
Beneath his
Spent feet.

“I could fill Volumes with Descriptions of Temples and Palaces, Paintings, Sculptures, Tapestry, Porcelaine, &c. &c. &c. — if I could have time. But I could not do this without neglecting my duty. The Science of Government it is my Duty to study, more than all other Studies Sciences: the Art of Legislation and Administration and Negotiation, ought to take Place, indeed to exclude in a manner all other Arts. I must study Politicks and War that my sons may have liberty to study Painting and Poetry Mathematicks and Philosophy. My sons ought to study Mathematicks and Philosophy, Geography, natural History, Naval Architecture, navigation, Commerce and Agriculture, in order to give their Children a right to study Painting, Poetry, Musick, Architecture, Statuary, Tapestry and Porcelaine.”
-Letter from John Adams to Abigail Adams, post 12 May 1780

“Nothing that is worth doing can be achieved in our lifetime; therefore we must be saved by hope.” -Reinhold Niebuhr

Second Cup of Saturday Morning Coffee

For many, Saturday Night is Date Night…

Survival Guide

Hyperbolic, first-world declarations
About coffee, air conditioning or
Wireless computer connections:
We couldn’t possibly live
Without them. Throw us into
The arctic surrounds of our ancestry
And forget the igloo, the seal hides
And blubber: we need to check
Our instagram accounts. Keep
The knife, the desalinization
Membranes and radio:
Drag us to the closest cell tower;
We need to read our e-mail.

Throngs of people line city streets
Clutching their surrogate electronic
Rhesus monkey mothers,
Offering nurturing security,
Loving attention from man-made
Bestowers of contact and affection,
A life-line offering one level of
Maslow’s actualized human needs:
Love. The basics come in
Much less comforting packages:
Lunch wrapped in tinfoil, apartments
Sweltering in brick façades,
Swaths of cotton stained from
Sweat of the daily toil.

Grief is love
Encountering its archenemy;
The delivery system of
Our will to live is
A mere incarnation of
Our will to thrive. Survival
Without reason or meaning is
A cell without connection,
Despondent and weakened
And not much worth it
To begin with. That’s
No exaggeration.

recharge

Skating on Page Park Pond

We are shuffling together
Across a hospital corridor,
Your aged body weak with malady,
Mine assuming a new role:
That of doting child.

One arm around your waist,
A hand under your twitching arm
We maneuver a wheeled walker
And trailing oxygen tube with
Slow and deliberate mobility.
Your skin still emits warmth
Regardless of all that has
Atrophied underneath.

You held me this way once,
Thirty-five years ago, as we
Glided across ice,
Blades on our feet,
My ankles buckling from taxing
Rarely-used, unnamed muscles.

Embarrassed over my lack
Of skill, trumped by my
Pride in yours, I savored the
Attention, paid with parity
For each acre of your
Complicated life.

Our piece-meal skating costumes
Blue-collared sheaths, were
More like crimson cloaks
And cadet grey capes in
The vapors of our exhaled
Breath, staccato waves of
Effort and laughter.

Currier and Ives printed
The same over your utilitarian,
Cotton, hospital-issued gown,
Shrouding sorrow, grief, and
Illuminating an evanescent
Physical warmth of our
Eternal familial connection.

Central Park, Winter The Skating Pond Courtesy of the Currier & Ives Foundation

Central Park, Winter
The Skating Pond
Courtesy of the Currier & Ives Foundation

Still Life with Pear

A bartlett pear, held atop the
Touching wrists of a child,
Is a homage, a prayer,
A subject of Van Gogh, more
Than a simple selection of produce.

Brought to the nose,
Molecules dance to the
Back of her tiny throat
In a sweet wave
That whispered:
I am a healer! The strength
Of my seeds will arouse
Even a dying king,
Prostrate on his bed!

Or so goes the legend
Of the Bartlett’s
Fifteenth Century
French origins.

The child declares
It must be saved
Until story hour,
When mother and child
Would tuck themselves
Into one another’s bodies,
And read a selection
Divine enough, simple enough
To illustrate life’s sweetness,
No matter how small.

She lay the ovoid-shaped,
Pinched like maternal hips,
Fruit into a dough bowl
With others, still too
Green to be savored.
She staked her claim and
Gazed at it, golden,
Amber and radiant
Like the sunshine that
Cultivated it.

At four years,
Nowhere near
Ripened herself,
One wonders how
She found the time to understand
The value of delayed gratification,
Drawn-out pleasures,
Or the wisdom to place
Luminosity on a single,
Perfect pear:
Ephemeral, rare,
Tucked brilliantly
Into her monotonous days
Of letters, numbers and
Bird-sized, earthly meals.

1887 -88, Vincent Van Gogh, Still Life with Pears Oil on Canvas Courtesy of Staatliche Kunstsammlungen Dresden

1887 -88, Vincent Van Gogh, Still Life with Pears
Oil on Canvas
Courtesy of Staatliche Kunstsammlungen Dresden

Anubis

Oh, some scholar! oh, some sailor!
Oh, some wise man from the skies!
Please to tell a little pilgrim
Where the place called morning lies!

Emily Dickinson

Radiance of Ra,
A sun god, illuminates
The chamber, aglow with
Yellow hues of a
Signaled Spring.

Blinding, waking, the
Light saturates objects
Of routine and comfort,
Casting shadows on
The wall above a
Clanking radiator, busy
Tossing off artificial
Heat on our waking,
Still bodies.

A picture frame, an
Armchair blocks
The rays, forming
A suggested image of
An Egyptian jackal
On the wall.
A sweater tossed
In weariness over
The arm becomes
A scale, projected,
Weighing the heft of a
Leaden heart, bursting
But burdened.

It hangs over the
Twitching body of
A still sleeping dog,
Content and relaxed
In its unconditional
Sharing of affections.
He blinks while humans stir
Knowing he lies
Securely in
Dickinson’s morning,
Where death stops
Not, and we all
Acknowledge the gift
Of one more day
To try and get it right.

Kinship

Two sisters barely fit
Into the soaking tub anymore.
They lie curled around
One another, like a monochromatic
Human rendition of the
Yin and the yang,
All alabaster and pink,
Slick with soap and
Bath water.

They take their turns, out
Of spatial necessity, rinsing
Their hair, golden made
Dark amber with the water,
Which clings to their heads
Pronouncing the enormity
Of their skulls, the fullness
Of their cheeks. It drips
From curlicued ribbons,
Onto their tiny,
Rounded shoulders.

Imagine, if years had not
Separated their births,
What a sonographic image
Of them would have looked like:
Two new bodies, underdeveloped,
Intertwined, unable to
Support the greatness
Of their heads, the epicenter
Of who they are and
What they will become.

Stoics Shoveling Snow

They emerge from their dwelling-places,
New Englanders, to the public
Colonnade, suburban sidewalks
Clogged and choked by
Township plows. Mounds
Of packed snow, churned up like a wake
Line the streets, shrouding
Helpless cars in drifts and clouds.

Tax payer dollars, purchased plows,
Providing service for the public good,
Ipso facto, is a burden: the personal
Chore of freeing one’s self
From the natural reality
That is the weather, worsened.

They nod to neighbors
Commenting on the beauty,
Bright and peaceful,
In the recaptured sun.
Aware of their public persona,
Shells of themselves,
They bend at the knee
And smoothly, without complaint,
Clear a path to the larger world
Beyond themselves.

Their pajamas, hidden
Under snowmobile suits,
Goose down, soak with
Their efforts. They bear
The logical result of
Precipitation in
Sub-freezing temperatures,
And ignore a nagging,
Lonely voice that is heard, loudly
And echoing off new-fallen,
Silent snow.

They connect with the fire,
Their primordial being and
The warmth of strength,
While the cynic across the street,
Who with his heavy equipment
Curses the long winter,
And claims a seat on
The next flight
To Paradise Island.

Morning In Montclair

The town is waking beside
Us, my daughter and me,
As we drive to her bus stop.
I am silent as the first
Few ounces of coffee start
To reduce the swelling around
My eyes, but she actively
Chatters a commentary
Of the daily details of
What transpires outside
Our car windows,
Still blooming with frost:
A bespectacled man
Walking an old English
Sheepdog who raises his
Paper cup to us in greeting,
Shop keepers turning keys
In streak-free doors,
Reflecting the rising sun
Still framed in boxwood and
White lights for Christmas,
A gaggle of children
Huddled together at the
Corner of North Mountain Avenue
Waiting for their own ride to school.
Yet noticeably absent
Is the pregnant woman
Pushing a stroller occupied
By a toddler of unknown gender,
Tucked into a fleece pouch,
Westbound on Bloomfield Avenue.
“I bet she gave birth!”
My daughter exclaims,
As I long for our unacquainted,
Who as familiar as they are
Remain strangers to
Our intimate daily life.

Janus

2014 was feted
With exhaustion:
A collective fatigue
Of a complicated year
Of regrets and pride
In a pool of deluded people,
Drunken enthusiasts
Content to seize
This opportunity
To convince themselves
That an invitation is proof
Enough of a full life.

Others, introverted,
Stand dumb-struck and
Contemplating a most
Thoughtful party favor:
A Roman coin,
A Latin god in relief:
Janus, of transitions,
Two-faced and split
With one persona
Looking back
In reflection,
The other, forward
With hope, anxiety and
Recognition of change
We all face
On any given day.

One guest holds it
On a clothed cocktail table,
Steadfast with a forefinger,
Flicks it with the
Free finger of the other hand
Forcing a spin
That results in a single,
Whole head, an
Optical illusion
Making contact with her
Own still face.

The whirling dervish,
A spinning god
reminds her
Of free will
And industry
And a single day
Of pause, reflection,
And considering
Janus as her own
Personal, straightforward
First-footer.

Hogmanay hogwash:
Scottish superstition
Whereby one
Can rely on the
Future by the
Luck of the first visitor
Of the new year:
May the first to cross
Your threshold
Be a tall, dark,
Handsome Scotsman,
Or the soul- searching
Harborer of uncertainty.

She privately pledges to
Seize present moments
With deliberate care.
Even this one:
Muffled with
Exaggerated voices,
Fuzzy with champagne
And shimmering with
Artificial light
Meant to brighten
The long nights
Following the winter solstice.

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